Monday, May 13, 2013

I'm Not Sure if This is Pretty or Scary...

Just about finished with this painting... and I'm just not sure about it... I can't tell if it's really kinda cool, or just a little bit scary...  

I haven't been moved to paint for about 2 months

That happens sometimes
the feeling just goes away
it's not in me, nowhere to be found

Not sure what causes it to go
or why it comes back

But suddenly i'll be burning to paint something again

like an irresistible force
usually when i'm stuck at my desk at work

It's strange, unexplainable


Maybe the desire came back because
 Rosebud Cottage is Bursting into Bloom all over the place!

I love that big ole snowball bush in the photo above
and of course the coral pink azaleas...

Spring is a wonderous time of year

well, except for the tornadoes !!!

You don't know this, but i have a horrible phobia of thunderstorms!  
I think each and every one of them will have a tornado in it

I'm not kidding

In fact i think that if you aren't scared during a thunderstorm you don't have any sense, so i will never listen to you tell me how safe we are in the car or whatever, because i've already decided you don't have sense enough to be scared!

I will not drive in ANY thunderstorm, Ever
 They ALL look like this to me

only the scariest possible thing ever...

I've tried therapy
It doesn't work

 It is a problem

In fact, sometimes if a big storm is coming....
waaay before it gets here... i will go someplace that is in a big brick building,  and just hang out until it's over....
cause my house is small
it feels like i'm in Dorothy's house from the Wiard of Oz
(think i watched the wizard of oz too many times when i was young?)

Pretty sick huh?

I mean when seen from a distance
a storm can be a stunning, breathtaking act of nature

I call this one
"Uh Oh"

 but if this storm below were coming towards me
i would just have to shoot myself..
I mean,  which way would you run to get away from this!???


Of course, most of my friends LOVE thunderstorms

Anyway, while i was hanging (hiding) out at a brick coffee shop near my house the other day tracking a storm on the radar on my computer

...there was a tornado warning for my county...
 I noticed a comma shaped blob on the radar indicating a tornadic storm and it was right near my town!!! practically on top of it!!!!!

Another girl was in there on her computer at the same time, and she was giddy because she saw it on the radar too and of course she LOVES storms

We both walked out the door to look at the sky


Oh my gosh!!!

It was calm where i was, but, pretty as you please, about 5 blocks away to the north there was one moving left to right across the sky!!!

I couldn't believe it!!!, I...., the person most scardest of tornadoes in the whole wide world was seeing an actual tornado!

and where i was standing it was just cloudy and calm... while a few blocks up there was a tornado
what the heck!!!

I wasn't even that sick, panic attack scared  !!
Probably because i could tell it wasn't going to hit us

But whoa... dang... 

So That's my spring tornado story

and NO, i am NOT cured now!  No way...Absolutely not!

 ...the end...  



  1. i love the new painting, sweets!!! actually, i would like to see more of it, i can't tell how big it is?? i am so glad your beautiful gardens inspired you to paint... nature certainly can inspire can't it? o.k....i must admit, that i love storms! sorry they scare you so, but maybe seeing the torna-freakin-do was some sorta sign, like see here cindy, this is not hurting you....and the odds are, you will never be that close to one again? i think you are rather lucky to see such a force of nature so close. i do know for sure, that your painting is amazing and you are such a talented artist and you inspire me so very much!
    happy belated mommies day!

  2. i love the painting! it's like there's a party erupting in the center, complete with confetti rising.

    bella luna is storm phobic which makes this season tricky for us. she doesn't respond to medicine to sedate her so she has to white knuckle it out every time. for storms during the day, i pack her around in a snuggly. it's the only thing that helps. but i can't sleep with her strapped to me!

    i hope there won't be too much extreme weather for you to face, my friend.


  3. Hi Cindy, tornados are to me as scary as California earthquakes, dont like them at all. At least you most of the time have a storm warning! where we have a sudden shock of shaking.

    as for you my friend and your storm fears I hear you I still fear each and every shaking of our earthquakes. As for your thought in your painting as to maybe feeling a bit scary, im not seeing scary at all, but maybe a bit deep, dark in mood and it can be a ggod feeling at times, it can be a piece that draws you in to stair and think, taking your thoughts to a place of wonderment and calm.
    Thats what this piece does for me. I am sure it will sell fast to someone with a great big contemporary hanging center stage in a room of beautiful polished stone floors and white walls.
    Its truely a beatiful soulful piece you can be proud of.

    I get where your coming from with a lack of art interest in painting running through your blood. I too experience this for periodes of time until something inspires my spirit and moves me to create... Even if it is rubbing two sticks together to create a loved piece of salvage something.

    Thank you for your beautiful visit to my place. If your house is ever picked up in a storming tornado I home it lands you with your home planted in my backyard :)


  4. I can't blame you Cindy because I'm afraid of Hurricanes! And look where I live!!! In fact they say we are long overdue for a category 4 or more....eeek.
    BTW, I love your painting. Looks like little birds floating around inside waves.


  5. That painting is lovely! It reminds me of a billowing skirt on one of those dancers that kicks her legs up high!
    I love all your paintings though! Wish: someday might have one!

  6. It is certainly a righteous fear. Utter loss of control. Nonetheless, control is an illusion.

    Mark 4:35-40

    "35 And the same day, when the evening was come, he saith unto them, Let us pass over unto the other side. 36 And when they had sent away the multitude, they took him even as he was in the ship. And there were also with him other little ships. 37 And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full. 38 And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish?
    39 And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. 40 And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith? 41 And they feared exceedingly, and said one to another, What manner of man is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?"



  7. I think is it would look great in my home! You are so talented.

  8. Hi Cindy! Those photos are amazing! I have been through a couple or tornadoes, but never saw anything like those! I'm trying to make the connection between your gorgeous painting, being scared and tornadoes and the best I can come up with is that you think that the white flower petals looks like swirling storm clouds. Nah! Your beautiful flower looks like a flower - not to worry! What you felt while standing in that doorway watching the tornado was the "calm before the storm". It's the weirdest thing. There won't be a bird chirping, no wind, no natural noise at all prior to the storm's passing. Not quite sure why that happens, but it's a good indicator when a tornado is near, that it's time to go inside! Glad you got to view it from a safe distance! Hugs, Leena

  9. Yikes I hate tornadoes too! Bad memories of them as a child.And I know someone personally that was killed in one.She brought her kids in the basement and went up to get the dog and that was it!I always tell my daughter I love our Kitty but if she is hiding then she is out of luck! I think animals know where to go to be safe.
    Beautiful flower painting! I think creative people like us go through uninspired periods!

  10. Cindy, I was having a very bad day, just feeling very low, so I came to my blog to check out some pretty things, and I see your post title and just LOLd, so please know you've put a smile on my face in an otherwise icky day.

    I don't blame you for not liking tornados, they are incredibly scary and destructive. Like Dore upthread, I live in Southern California, and we are way overdue for a major earthquake. Thing is, *we don't get ANY warnings* - things just suddenly start flying off the wall! Sometimes the EQs are incredibly violent, sometimes they aren't so bad, but the problem with them is they are incredibly widespread and when you get one major EQ, you will have preshocks (which means that shaking you felt could get MUCH MUCH WORSE!) and TONS of aftershocks (some of which rate higher on the Richter Scale than the EQ that set the chain off). So if your home and property and life weren't damaged in the preshock or EQ, you just have to wait and see if you survive the aftershocks! It's incredibly scary.

    The silver lining to the tornado cloud is at least you get a warning, and though if one touches down they can be incredibly destructive, you run a much much better statistical risk of NOT having your home or property destroyed or losing your life in a tornado than an EQ, and with a tornado you often have time to run for cover. True, we don't have "earthquake season" twice (or more) times a year, but sometimes I think I'd take the tornados over the earthquakes! When we get our major EQ, it is going to be massively damaging and devastating, and there are going to be billions of dollars worth of damage (just saw the statistics in a Red Cross video - horrifying!) and major loss of life. So pray for us out here on the west coast, and we'll do the anti-tornado dance for you!

    BTW, the painting is gorgeous, as all your paintings are. I think it's airy and delicate and beautiful.



  11. well we don't have those kind of storms, so move up to Boston! You will get a thunderstorm but rarely a tornado unless its a freak of nature. My sister lives in Kansas City and I think I would have a shelter for sure...too scary thinking about tornados whipping through and flattening everything. So my little Dorothy, your painting is a beauty. There is a sense of light to all of your paintings~the colors are just beautiful. xo

  12. Oh my goodness Cindy!! Thanks for sharing your tornado story with us.. sounds very scary! Regarding painting.. it's just got to feel right and spring time is sure to add a little energy to the creative side:) Those pink azalea are so pretty. Always a pleasure to stop over here and thank you SO much for always visiting me:) Have a wonderful weekend! xxleslie

  13. Now I know we are kindred spirits....I. HATE. STORMS! (And we live in a house built on a concrete slab!! Egads!!) my hubby is the worship leader at our church and I make him leave me his keys to church when he goes to work because there is a nice basement there. :-) it makes me feel safer knowing I have those keys. :) I was in a tornado when I was little and I think that's why I don't like them now. Phobia for sure. :)
    Love ya sweet girl, and I don't think your painting is scary at all. Oh...and I'm the same way about sewing....the mood has to hit me or I just can't doit. :)

  14. Those pictures of the storm clouds are fascinating! Very scary... but so so beautiful!!! Stay safe... and keep on painting!


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