Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Leggings, Pink House, Faux Fur, and Fantasizing...


Hi Everyone...

Can you even believe how fast time is going and that it is almost Thanksgiving!  Christmas trees are out in the stores, and as much financial stress as the Holdays have brought me in the past,  I swear i still get excited about decorating with all the little white twinkle lights and glittery shiny baubles and fluff...
 
Whenever i see Christmas decor in stores i get this combination sick sinking feeling, nostalgia, and desire to decorate.  
It's a weird combination...

and tell me this.... there are so many faux trees out there... Michaels, Home Depot, Lowes...EVERYWHERE... but not one white flocked tree to be found!
  I mean they are literally the prettiest trees ever made, and no one sells them.  Well, except places online where they cost about $400.00 to $800.00 !  So that's not happening...

I bought a flocking kit once, and tried to flock my own tree .  I think I remember that you had to hook it somehow to your vacuum cleaner blowing the air out or something like that -  and when i did the flocking powder blew out the back of the bag thing and covered my driveway and every part of me in this crazy white f#!*&!?  flocking stuff, it was the worst purchase ever.  Don't buy one...

Ok, so i'm just gonna ramble on like i usually do when i've haven't talked to ya'll in a while

forgive me in advance...

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So check out the cool surprise that arrived for me in the mail the other day!  It is a pink faux fur jacket from my sister!  How great is this!!!




so fun...




Ok, next subject - 

A builder is building this darling house near where I live, and i want to sell my house right now and move into it.  It is the complete perfectest shade of pink ever - and check out those vintage looking windows they used... I could sooo rock this house...



subject number 10,333
it's not easy being like this

Ok so you HAVE to listen to this... A blogger I follow - Cara of    
Maskara  .....



... blogged about these leggings she found at Nordstrom's.  She had just had a baby and was talking about great post baby outfits and had on these leggings.  I went to Nordstroms and found a pair, and i dearly love them in every way.  Especially since my stomach has ALWAYS looked like a post baby stomach. 
They're cute, and they're cotton, so they're not itchy and don't feel like you have rubber bands on your legs... plus they have a wide soft waist band so they don't show your lumps.  And none of that crotch drop thing that is torture... They're comfortable enough to wear to bed, get up the next morning, put on a top and go... and believe me, i have... is that too gross?'

I love them - and not too bad a price at $38.00 a pair
Do yourself a favor and check them out...


this is a photo with me looking down at my boot... 
 

Anyway, even if you 're not interested in the leggings, you should check out Cara's blog, she is adorable and down to earth, and her blog is fun as anything... Plus she has great makeup tips...
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last subject, i promise...

So I was at a cute little shop in town 
and the lady there asked me if i sold Milk Paint... and i was like uhhhhhhh no, why do you think i sell Milk Paint?  and she told me she thought since i knew Miss Mustard Seed, and had painted her cow "Eulalie" and stuff that maybe i did because she had clients who came to her shop looking for milk paint and she didn't sell it.

and she said, why don't' you do what i did, and get a storage shed kinda like this


or this... and adapt it a little to make it more cute, and open a little studio and sell your paintings and sell Milk Paint?



and I was immediately like, no that's crazy, i have to work full time to help pay our bills etc...
absolutely not, impossible... no way...

but it put an idea in my head... like hmmmm is something like that even remotely possible?

because i could paint more and maybe sell more prints and paintings if i had time to actually paint other than on the weekends - and then have time to market myself more with all the crazy social media that's out there... which is overwhelming even if one is not working...

and then I started thinking how fun it would be to dress up a little  shed with white paint, and chandeliers and well you know, i ended up with this in my brain

Sandra Fosters victorian cottage

which i think all of us have died for since we first saw it online...


but the fact is, if i'm lucky we'd probably end up with something more like this...
maybe even not this good...

but painted pink or white, with window boxes and a crystal chandelier .. even a plain box would be cute 



...and it would use all of our teeny little savings to set something like that up...


But...in the fantasy, i would have tea parties, 
(even though i don't even drink tea, hmmmm...maybe wine parties instead...) 

and little gatherings to sell my art 
(even though i've never given a party ever not ever, and i'm a total introvert)

and i would have time to paint and sell paintings and prints, 
and do yoga, and get rested and mentally stable again, maybe (ha!)
and so on....

In reality, I know i'm lucky to have a job, and health insurance, and what if i spent our meager savings on a little shed/cottage,
and then no one would buy anything from me ever again, and i'd end up penniless and wont even be able to buy my prescriptions, or even have enough money to shop at the thrift store etc... and more of the worst thing ever etc etc.... 

But then this little thing inside keeps whispering in my ear to take a chance, do something different, be brave, have faith in the bounty and magic in the universe
you know, like Marian, Miss Mustard Seed did, when she took leaps of faith... and look at where she is now or the Nester, how great is she!?

I mean I'm scared to be stuck at work until I die dealing with BS insurance companies until my butt fuses to my office desk chair, 
 but i'm also scared to take the risk to do something different and it not work out... and if it doesn't  who is going to hire a crazy neurotic freaky 60 year old lady !!? 

and then and then I'd end up stuck at home alone all day, (at least until our home got forclosed on)  - with our cat, who by the way is insane, and become a crazy wrinkled, divorced, broke old alcoholic cat lady... who dies on her sofa and no one finds her body for 3 days

I don't know guys, what do you think about the whole idea of working less, like a lot less, maybe not at all, and painting more, and risking complete financial ruin?


  ...uhhhhh ... the end...?








Wednesday, October 8, 2014

and the Award for the Worst Blogger in the World goes to ...


ME!

I am definitely the worst blogger ever!  

It's just that I feel like my house is a mess, and I have too many unfinished ideas and projects and paintings, and i want to rip the living room carpet up and it just seems too hard to even start, and everything in my brain feels like chaos...  

You know how it is when you feel like you have to clean up the kitchen before you can cook anything.  
I think i feel like i have to get my house and my mind in order before I can talk about anything.  But it just keeps not happening.  It's one extended period of overload that is not giving way to calm and order... 

So just to let you know I'm still here, and reading you guys whenever i can sneak a peak at while I'm at work, and that basically  I'm doing this blog post without anything whatsoever substantial to say other than "hey"! 

...but I will show you a pretty sheepskin I found at an unlikely shop the other day, 
that and this perfect shade of pink tablecloth all tossed together on the sofa...


I think just looking at pretty pink stuff makes everything better....



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So Mr. Fractured and I decided we wanted our own child together... 
and after some discussion -  we decided to adopt a kitten.

I know there are so many adult cats that need homes, but we really wanted to raise a baby together.  
I guess that seems a little stupid, but at our age and after all we been through raising our kid's cats and dogs after the kids went on their merry ways
we wanted a baby just for us...

We went to the Durham pound and after massive paperwork and promises to go to the vet and a deposit and a waiting period we were allow to adopt our new kitten  
"Willow"

She looks so calm and sweet there doesn't she...


Well... about 80% of the time she is purring and affectionate and playful and funny
but between around 5pm and 8pm
she is a sociopath - 
she's like the tasmanian devil - crazy cat 
all claws and somersaults sideways bouncing attack kitty... 

my dogs are like what the hell, what were you guys thinking???!

But oh boy how we love her...
Mr. Fractured is such a good and doting daddy
it is totally sweet and makes me fall in love with him all over again

Oh yeah, 
dried hydrangeas and kittens...
need i say more other than i hope you don't really love your dried hydrangeas if you get a kitten

So there's that...

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I still have these Cafe au Lait dahlias blooming and I LOVE them
the thing is they bloom very late summer and now they are covered in the promise of so many blooms to come and it's about 3 weeks till the first frost and they cannot tolerate any frost
So i'm telling the little flower buds to hurry up and open !!!


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I found this sweet little Madonna bust at a yard sale for $3.00 and 
she just really spoke to me

but she was kind of washed out 
so i painted her base pink and gave her a little flush on her cheeks...


I really hope i haven't defiled a priceless religious object by painting it with annie sloan and oil paint...

oops...


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My friend had this adorable little white table at her shop and tried it out beside my sofa, and it totally brightens that whole little space up - i have two dark wood Target tables beside the sofa now... so that was fun ...


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 I painted this feather painting to sell at my friend's shop

but then i liked it and hung it in my house...

I'll probably sell it soon





Oh yeah, and i saw this little nest painting I did for Marian 
( Miss Mustard Seed) a couple of years ago on her blog recently.

It made me so proud to see how pretty it looks in her gorgeous house... 
But she knows how to make everything look good...



Gosh... there really is so much in the world to look at and talk about...

but I guess that's enough random subjects to throw at you guys for now...

...much love...


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Wednesday, September 3, 2014

A New Settee


Hi Guys!

Can you even believe summer is coming to a close!??!

The older I get the faster everything goes.  I mean really fast. Like a year seems more like 4 months fast.
 Before you know it I will be dead.  So that being said, I think it's ok to eat chocolate any time i want... right?

Anyway, Mr. Fractured and I finally took a little vacation and went to the beach.  Other than the drive down which involved apocalyptic thunderstorms that looked like F5 tornadoes were going to drop out of them,  and having to pull off the road 3 times, which made Mr. Fractured go into his "I'm being patient" mode... which really means, she's completely out of her mind... 
it turned out to be so relaxing and just beachy wonderfulness as the beach always is.  

One of the best parts of Oak Island, NC is that it is near Southport which is this little port town with boats and shops and benches and cute old houses and cottages.  

 check out what i found on the front porch of one of the little shops

This pink tattered and torn settee!


Here it is on the front porch of the little shop - that box covers up a hole in it, but i didn't care
It was love at first site...

Just look at those adorable rolled arms, and the pretty little legs




I really want it at my dining room table... but it's too short.  Soooooooo, here we go with the change one thing and completely redo everything else deal.  

I am going to have to make it taller or the table shorter or both... I know i can take at least an inch maybe two off the table base, but how to raise the settee... hmmmmm - do ya'll have any ideas on how to do that?

Plus my dining table is really too big for the room, and now the chandy doesn't hang over the center anymore 
aaannnd ... if i lower the table I may need to cut off the little apron around the round part of the table so your legs don't bang into it... and i need to move the little desk out of the way

all of that and more to infinity...

Moving stuff around did inspire me to move my "Miss Daisy" print to over my mantel and i really do like her there better than the rose that was up there
i just propped her up in front of the other painting



oh yeah, I didn't want to forget to show you guys this little cottage in Southport
How cute is that!
I could so totally live in that little pink house right near the seaport...



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hmmmm...What else has been going on...

Well, i've been growing my first dahlias and it's been an interesting experience.

I had no idea the stems could get as thick around as a quarter at the bottom... so some of them have fallen right over from the weight.  
And I was thinking I'd only get a few blooms, but they are just now coming to fruition and i'm getting lots of the amazing big flowers, and some of the stems and blooms are already up past my waist!...
so i'm pretty sure I love them!





In the spring the garden was so tidy, and i planted lots of tomatoes and some hot peppers and squash ...

By July the tomatoes had gone crazy...
like, what the heck crazy!

they are growing up all over the place, as tall as me, covering up the peppers and sage and lavender
falling over the fence

everything is now totally overgrown and messy

kinda like a cottage garden, but not in a good way !

It's like a jungle!

plus there is the occasional poison ivy in the mix

I did pick this bouquet of roses just last week
i couldn't even believe something that wonderful came out of my very own garden






So anyway, i was out weeding and cutting back stuff, and had been all up near the poison ivy with my bare hands, 
and you know how it is in the garden, you go to do one little thing, and don't put on your gloves, and end up sticking your hand in places where you just really really hope a snake doesn't bite you

and i had a skirt on because i always wear dresses or skirts because i can't really stand the way pants feel all up on my legs
 i know, weird huh...
ok and i know this is TMI but 99.9% of my life i wear undies, but for some reason didn't have any on in that moment
probably just threw on a skirt to go water the window box or something

anyway a branch of a flower or something went up under my skirt and BAM something bit me right on my ass!  and it wasn't a small little bite either!  

i was like GAAAHHHH!  

I didn't want to touch anything because i had poison ivy on my hands, but i didn't even want whatever thing that was to bite me again!!!

And of course i didn't have my undies on!  Really???!! 

I froze for about a millisecond  and  then just dropped my skirt down around my ankles with my bare bottom and everything else showing... 

I mean i didn't know what the heck horrible thing was up under there 
EWWWWWWWWW!!!

 i  didn't really have good choices here

It could've been a hornet, or even worse, a spider 
or maybe even a mutant hornet black widow spider poisonous snake for all i knew.... 

anyway, i live on a corner of a neighborhood, where cars do go by and people walk by all the time, and i had to make it into the house with the skirt around my knees without being seen... 

It was a great look

I walked in and Mr. Fractured just stood there... like uhhhhhh
and he is very polite
so he wouldn't laugh at a lady in distress
but i could tell he was holding his lips together to keep from laughing
and as i was escaping from my skirt i just said 
"don't look at me"!!!
because seriously, my bottom half is not my best half especially in broad daylight...


and that is most of the latest from cindysfracturedfairytale and fractured cottage garden 

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Wednesday, July 30, 2014

I Met Miss Mustard Seed !



I finally met Marian, Miss Mustard Seed !
Three years after doing her first painting "Eulalie"

 She is adorable.... and I have to tell you, it was just like seeing someone I already knew.  I mean from reading her posts and talking in the email...  seeing her in person and talking was so familiar, like being around an old friend.  
It actually kind of blew my mind how a friend from online can be just as real as a friend in "real life"

I was so happy to finally look at her face in person, and give her a big hug... it was awesome, she was awesome...
 good easy energy, a very loving spirit, and cute as hell 

But don't let her adorableness fool you...


This woman is a force of nature...

She not only has moved mountains in her home
She moved mountains in my home

Thanks to her I sell quite a few prints
and i almost, just almost 
could stop working full time and painting more..

(who do you think the car with eyelashes belongs to?)
 
Here is the new painting i did for her

 I was painting this to sell at the shop where i sell my work
.... and i started thinking ... this would look good in Marians house


So I emailed her and asked her if she wanted it, and she was like "Heck yeah"

and that was all she wrote... the painting was officially Marian's before it was even finished.

anyway, all i can say... is thank you Marian
my world is made massively better through knowing you


...the end...






Monday, July 21, 2014

I'm In Paint Color Hell .... Again



Hi gang,

I'm sorry ...  don't hate me... I know i've been so absent.  I'm just seriously overwhelmed with the whole social media thing.
 There are just so many options out there now...  
I know I love Pinterest, and then there's Facebook... so I have a personal Facebook page, and a Cindysfracturedfairytales Facebook page... and i follow a bunch of people on both of those.  And THEN, i decided I would stop boycotting Instagram as just another form of social media... and tried it, and I really like Instagram, so there's that... and then the blog, which I've totally neglected because Instagram is instant gratification... and  there is summer and the garden and life and work and trying to paint ....so... Half the time i don't have any idea where to focus my energy with this stuff, and then i get behind on all of it.  I really need to find a rhythm and balance here...
(is rhythm the hardest word in the world to spell or what...)


Anyway, thanks to a lot of you talking about it, i finally caught on and watched a couple of episodes of "Fixer Upper" 
 it is totally home decor porn!

 The season finale almost make my head explode it was so cool

So of course now I've gone completely insane again and did intense online research good enough to qualify me to become part of the the CIA to find out the colors she used  -
 and as you can imagine decided to repaint my living room, dining room, and kitchen which has entailed buying 8 thousand paint samples to try, which look absolutely nothing, nothing at all like the gorgeous wall colors in the episodes.  What the heck is the deal with that!??? 
I mean, I know i know all about how lighting and the computer monitor can change the look of the paint and all that... 

but come on... surely my walls would look something..... even a teeny weeny bit like the walls she painted!!????

Nope

so here we go...

example 1
Sherwin Williams 
 2 parts Mindful Gray to 1 part some other lighter color
now that i see it here on the blog, i like it
but in person it looked so dark



 Example 2
Benjamin Moore
Revere Pewter

see the current wall color on the left and above

Whoa don't like this one - way too dark
and how is it so blue???

Example 3
Martha Stewart
Gray Pearl


Example 2039
my current wall color on top
Mindful Gray at 50% below that
some other color under that
Edgcombe gray at the very bottom

it's becoming pretty clear that at this point that i am starting to lose it right?

lord help me and all who have been around me this weekend

you can see a giclee print of Eulalie on the table, i am proofing it for a buyer - looks good!
 

In addition i then tried each one of these same colors in my living room and it looks like i painted cold gray steel on the walls!!!
 
how is it that Joanna from 'Fixer Upper' can take these exact colors and they are soooooooooo incredibly beautiful

what the heck!


 I need an intervention...

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What else has happened this summer?

Well i made this lemon meringue pie, twice in three weeks

I can't eat dairy products, so i found this recipe with no dairy and it was so darn good

 i literally ate this pie every day for one week
skipped a week
 then made it again
and ate most of that one


I mean Mr. Fractured ate some of it
but He has self control


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I finally started getting the urge to paint again after a 4 month dry spell, and painted this girl by the garden gate...  name suggestions?




I was lucky enough to end up with this insanely fabulous frenchy mirror


but i don't know,... it seems like it may be a little too big and fancy for my lowly little cottagy space

Below is the former mirror
What do ya'll think? 

I know the frenchy mirror is so amazing, but hmmmm...

Plus you can see my current wall color
seems so boring after seeing Fixer Upper... sigh


anyway, i'm gonna try to post more often and write less 
i realize i just blathered on about 4 different topics in this post

...as always, thanks for putting up with me... 
that's all for now

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Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Are Ya'll Even Still Speaking to Me?



I wouldn't be surprised if all of you just went pffft... the heck with her... she's never around when you need her!

I know i've been so absent.  

Honestly, I think i've just been shut down...  Do you ever get like that where everything you do just seems overwhelming, or pointless, or you feel like everything in your life is just stupid?

Well, i sure do.
I worry about my kids, money, the future, storms, asteroids hitting the earth
pretty much anything you can think of
and sometimes all of it just saps the life force right out of me


I haven't even really been able to paint in like 2 months!  Just couldn't do it... well except for one painting that i worked on intermittantly. Just today, for the first time in 2 months i felt like i could pick up the paint brush, and get it close to finished

Marian, "Miss Mustard Seed" might want it if she has a place for it, if not it will be for sale...

I'm really lucky that she likes my paintings, because people notice everything she does, and lots of people have bought my prints   because of her!  Especially "Eulalie"

Thank you Marian for making my paintings look so good with all your beautiful things !



anyway, here it is...
I don't have a name yet
but dosen't it seem like two old friends have a peaceful graze together




I had 10 days off of work, and had a list 80 miles long of all this stuff i was going to get done, and mostly i just started too many projects and made big chaotic messes everywhere, let the dogs in and out of the house 90 thousand times a day and wore myself out. 

So the dogs..............  
First one of the dogs wants out, so after a minute the other dog realizes that the first one is out, and decides she wants to go out too, but when i let her out the first dog decides to come in while the door is open -  so when i let her back in, the other one messes around in the yard a few minutes and is like crap, now i want back in too... and so it goes 90 thousand times a day...

Anyway, it is very very clear to me that  I need structure, or I will stay up until 2:00 in the morning drinking vodka and watching movies like Armageddon two nights in a row... seriously , i did that... 
Honestly, the way i talk about drinking vodka, i guess ya'll think i'm a terrible alcoholic
but i'm not a terrible alcoholic,
i'm a  perfectly good, very controlled, measured, and systematic alcoholic
i never drink before 8:00 pm
and i never get actually too very drunk... 
just perfectly buzzed
 i don't drink at parties because it makes me feel flushed and weird and stupid
In fact, i don't feel bad about drinking at all
I don't know how in the world anyone goes through life without drinking
That's insane


Ok... to change the subject to something that makes me appear more normal... and less of a substance abuser 

 the garden has been unbelievable this year. 

The snowball bush was humongous and slam full of big fluffy white balls, and roses are tumbling around the yard everywhere!  







dusk in the front yard





Rosebud cottage in the morning, a quick photo right before I leave for work...



Found a darlin little birds nest tucked into the branches of an Eden rose next to the house
see it in there?





and i finally got the window boxes planted.  It is always so fun to see them  full of pink geraniums




And i discovered an Iris i just LOVE 
It's called Champagne Elegance

Get one, you will adore it

the soft yellow and creamy white are so pretty with everything else in the garden

It's my new favorite thing....


and just look at this precious pink impatients




This little vintage cherub sits in the back yard in an old birdbath top



I hung a chandy from a tree in the front yard
it was a bargain chandy,
but it's still cute, and  i love to plug it in at night and sit outside under the tree, and have a nice little drink, watch the lightening bugs, and smell the honeysuckle
come on... what could be better than that




...and the rose i showed in the very first photo

here it is again...

it is wonderful! 
 I think it is called Peach Drift 
It has a smallish bloom and the colors are divine
all those colors are on two little rose clusters!



I did find this little desk at the thrift shop and painted it grayish with a mix of Annie Sloan paint colors, and then painted the inside pink

i love the shabby old mirror on top

I want to use it for my computer so it isn't sitting on the kitchen counter... but i need my friend Missy from "My Cottage Charm" to come over with her tools and help drill some holes in the back for computer cords!




My Friend  Karan of "Fetch Antiques" found me a an old chippy frame and it fit my print of "Good Morning Miss Daisy" perfectly!

She is 24 x 36 which is a standard size so it is not too hard to find old frames in that size at thrift shops and flea markets

I saw this print hanging  on a pink wall once at another friends shop -  Uniquitiques  - she purchased the print for herself and we tacked it up in her shop on the pink walls just to take a look at her 
she looked so damn pretty on those pink walls
that i decided to paint the inside of the frame pink

If you have a pink wall and you love shabby, cottagy stuff, and well, cows...
you should buy her -  and i'm not just saying that to make a sale
not even remotely 
she just looks so stunning on soft pink walls
in fact, if you want her, and you let me know you read about her in this blog post, i'll give you 20% off the price
cindyaustinpaintings.com

I was really tickled that she tucked right in the frame
 i secured her in there with a little duct tape since i didn't have the right canvas securing equipment thingys

Mr. Fractured would be proud, he uses duct tape for everything
but i bet his duct tape isn't pink with white polka dots like mine is


So anyway... just want to say thanks to all of you for being there, i'm not kidding... even when i miss your posts, things happen to me all the time that make me think of each and every one of you -  and i plan to spend the next week catching up on you guys...
I feel like you are not only my friends, but my social life, my support group, the people who make me laugh, and touch my heart... and let me share myself even in all my ADHD, vodka drinking, anxiety attack weirdo dysfunction
you're still there 
I tell you guys stuff that alot of people around me every day don't even know

how crazy is that

big hugs

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