Wednesday, March 4, 2015

It's Beautiful Outside Today!

Oh my gosh, it is 70 degrees here and sunny.  It's so completely wooonderful ....
This last part of winter here in North Carolina has been endless...

We had 8 inches of snow last week, and I had an extra day off of work so i was able to work on this painting and finish it up which felt so good...

I'd like you to meet "Lily and Estelle"
 - they are friends...

If you think i go into a painting knowing what the hell i am doing - you would be completely wrong!

 Honestly half the time i spend on a painting is fixing what's wrong with it...

 Let me show you all the incarnations of this painting

Below is how it started...

My inspiration was that yummy color of gray blue and the contrast with the black
sometimes i crave painting certain colors

 Ok, so phase two - I  painted in a friend in the background

but after pacing around and looking at it for a while, i decided the background cow was distracting - she just wasn't "it"
so had to wipe out a couple hours worth of work...
that's frustrating!

Next i decided to give just the impression of another cow in the background - 

at first i liked it better, it seemed easier on the eye, less distracting

but then it came to my mind it looked like a big gray male body appendage  ...

if i were talking to a friend in person i would just say it looks like a 
big _ _ _ _  !

but i can't really say that on the blog, you know

and sorry i know that's so crude... but... do you see ?

Of course, once that was in my brain I knew it had to go

you just can't unsee that

Finally this sweet girl wanted to come in for a nuzzle, and she was so cute, but she didn't quite work with the first cow...

 two cute cows, ... 
but didn't look like they should be in the same painting

hmmmm, what to do now?

so even though i liked the cow's black and gray nose, 
I decided to take a risk and blobbed some pink paint on the nose
it worked!

 now they play together well


i can't tell you how many times i was ready to just call it an "ok" painting and be done with it

but now i love them both and immediately their names came into my head

"Lily and Estelle"

That's probably more than you ever wanted to know about my backwards painting techniques!

but i wanted to tell you, so you won't be nervous to try painting or just anything
and realize that we all struggle with our work, sometimes we go backwards or come in sideways 
 sometimes we almost give up, and sometimes it's ok to give up if something is pulling your creative force away

the trick is to figure out when to go forward and push through it
or to just let it go...

... the end ...

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Carpet Begone phase 2 !

Hi Everyone!
Ya'll may remember that a couple of years ago, i yanked up the carpet in my bedroom and replaced it with plywood cut into planks so that they would look like rustic wood floors.   I still love them.  I painted the plywood with a wash of Annie Sloan paint in "Old White" and water, and then sealed them with "Stay Clear" and I'm happy to tell you that they have held up great!

Finally a couple of weeks ago i was able to do the same thing in the living room. Yay!  
I hired someone to do it because I'm getting too old to crawl around on the floor and pull up carpet and stuff, and I just didn't want to -  ya know...?!  I'm not as tough and sinewy as I used to be and i don't want to spend one minute of my what's left of my life pulling up carpet and carpet nail strips... 

I don't have many pictures to show you yet, but this will give you an idea...

the total cost for supplies, wood, having the wood cut, the nails, and the glue was $340.00

Here's how it looks before the Annie Sloan wash - I won't show pulling up that nasty old carpet!

this photo was so cloudy even after i touched it up in Picassa, my phone camera lens must have smudges on it... but you can still kinda see the floors...

sorry, i don't have better pics, but during the day I'm at work,  at night it is just too dark for photos...
and on the weekends I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off so i forget to take good photos..

I love these floors so much better than carpet.  
They even smell good like fresh wood

Everything got stirred up and I had to move stuff into the dining room to clear out the living room.  I moved this mirrored chippy door against the wall in the dining room to get it out of the way and decided I like it there!

My daughter says i have too many mirrors in my house, and she always thinks she's going to see a ghost in them - she thinks they are all haunted

She's a nut

Wonder where she inherited those genes?

But I do remember mirrors giving me the heebeegeebees when i was young - so i don't know what that's about


ok, so check out this little boot garland i made...

it was a fun and easy project

I just used this wrapped wire i found at Michaels.
I love this viney wire stuff...
you can do all kinds of things with it

Then i intertwined flowers and ribbons I had into it - made a little loop on one end and hook on the other and it was done...


Also since I talked to ya'll last I  worked on (fought with) a painting on and off for the last few weekends... 

I kept not liking it and couldn't figure out why - my daughter is my best critic and she was visiting - so i asked her "what's wrong with it?!" ...and she said there was too much brown ( the cows were brown) - so i painted the cows black and voila it all started to come together!  I love it when that happens... and she's always right!


I received my copy of Romantic Prairie Weddings by Fifi O'Neill... and it is so pretty - every single page is just luscious.  I especially like the doors draped with pale pink rose garlands... they're just to die for gorgeous

Fifi says she might come to my house in the spring - so here come the 90 nervous breakdowns about all my messes ... but exciting too!


So finally - check this out....
I opened my cabinet to get some olive oil, and what did i find....

Willow - "the destructor", kitty litter flinger, and slip cover shredder...

Lord only knows how long she was sittin in there just as pretty as you please.. 


...the end...

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

I'd Like to Introduce You to Marley...

Hi everyone... 

Hope you survived the Holidays.  Gosh, it's just crazy the weeks before, with shopping and decorating, and wrapping, and getting groceries for that ONE day!  You'd think we were preparing for the Apocalypse. ...And then it's just gone.. over.. one day.. then poof!

...and I'm like what the hell just happened


Anyway, after doing a commissioned painting that about ruined me for painting forever... 
quote -  
" I am never doing a commissioned painting again !"

 I finally got my creative juices back and painted a couple of sheep paintings.  

Here is the last one

His name is "Marley"

I had been trying to think of a name for him for days. 

When my daughter came over for Christmas she saw him and she said 
"Mom you painted a rasta sheep"... 

 ... and then i knew his name was "Marley" named after Bob Marley. 


I did get some really cute pillows for Christmas from my kids
check these out...

I had seen them at Kohls one day when i was with my daughter, 
but they were too expensive, and i was like no way, not spending that much for these even if i love them

but she went back and they were on sale, so she picked them up.
It was really sweet and thoughtful of her to do that, and I was very touched...

i don't really like the feeling of my kids buying me stuff, 
it feels weird for them to spend their money on me

but if they feel they must, these pillows were the deal!

I finally switched out my iphone 4s for an android after being stranded in a different town, on a freezing cold night, in my friends car with a smoking radiator and having a dead phone battery because my iphone battery had been draining really fast since the last upgrade

for a person who is anxious about everything 
that was up there on the list of worst case scenerios

there are about a thousand things on my worst case scenerio list
the main one's involving tornadoes, throw up viruses and airplanes 

anyway my friend was standing outside of her car, and i overheard a guy nearby say to her, "do you know your car is smoking"?
and i heard her say "don't tell her that"
meaning me...
she knows me well

so the next day i went directly to Verizon and i got a Galaxy S4note 
they didn't have any ipone 6's
so anyway, so far, it's great!

I was soooo all about my Iphone
I LOVED it like my child 
and was reluctant to change 
but the Galaxy is just fine!
easy to use
great graphics
amazing battery life
just thought you might want to know

anyway, the point of this long story about the phone is this - 
check it out - 
you can take the little S pen and write on photos!


 Also, i imagine you've seen this print online of gold lips 
You can buy it at Joss and Main or One Kings Lane or one of those types of places...

I thought it was cute, soooo...

I decided to make one like it as a gift for my daughter

 ...hope i don't get sued for copying it, so don't tell anyone

i just bought a canvas 50% off for $12.99
and a gold leaf kit for around $12.00 too

and did it!

It was kinda fun to do!

I just found the center of the canvas
(believe me, find the center, you do not want to do a cute painting and then have it all off center)!

I painted on an outline to follow with pink oil paint

brushed on the glue from the kit in the lip area, leaving some areas uncovered with glue for lip cracks

peeled off the gold foil stuff, which was crazy..
it was light as air and stuck to everything

then i laid in on the gluey area and rubbed and brushed it on

that took a couple of passes

then you just brush on a sealer, and it's done!

Anyway, other than the gold leaf being floaty and wrapping around my hands and in general being tricky
It was pretty fun !
and they really ARE shiny lips!!


 Looks like I'm back to my usual rambling posts for 2015 

I feel like it's ok to do that since ya'll told me to be myself and ramble if i want to and you'd like me anyway... 

...So thanks for saying that...

...the end...

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Short and Sweet....

I'm, gonna keep this blog post short, so ya'll won't hate me for my previous unendingly long ADHD posts!

Just finished this new painting.... She is a very very shabby sheep
It was my first time painting on wood which was kind of different... (except for plywood when i couldn't afford canvases )
anyway this was way nicer than painting on plywood... ;)  

ok, that's all I'm gonna say

... you didn't expect that did you...

neither did I

I've already thought about 10 other things i want to ramble about, but resisted the urge

love to you

...the end...

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Leggings, Pink House, Faux Fur, and Fantasizing...

Hi Everyone...

Can you even believe how fast time is going and that it is almost Thanksgiving!  Christmas trees are out in the stores, and as much financial stress as the Holdays have brought me in the past,  I swear i still get excited about decorating with all the little white twinkle lights and glittery shiny baubles and fluff...
Whenever i see Christmas decor in stores i get this combination sick sinking feeling, nostalgia, and desire to decorate.  
It's a weird combination...

and tell me this.... there are so many faux trees out there... Michaels, Home Depot, Lowes...EVERYWHERE... but not one white flocked tree to be found!
  I mean they are literally the prettiest trees ever made, and no one sells them.  Well, except places online where they cost about $400.00 to $800.00 !  So that's not happening...

I bought a flocking kit once, and tried to flock my own tree .  I think I remember that you had to hook it somehow to your vacuum cleaner blowing the air out or something like that -  and when i did the flocking powder blew out the back of the bag thing and covered my driveway and every part of me in this crazy white f#!*&!?  flocking stuff, it was the worst purchase ever.  Don't buy one...

Ok, so i'm just gonna ramble on like i usually do when i've haven't talked to ya'll in a while

forgive me in advance...

So check out the cool surprise that arrived for me in the mail the other day!  It is a pink faux fur jacket from my sister!  How great is this!!!

so fun...

Ok, next subject - 

A builder is building this darling house near where I live, and i want to sell my house right now and move into it.  It is the complete perfectest shade of pink ever - and check out those vintage looking windows they used... I could sooo rock this house...

subject number 10,333
it's not easy being like this

Ok so you HAVE to listen to this... A blogger I follow - Cara of    
Maskara  .....

... blogged about these leggings she found at Nordstrom's.  She had just had a baby and was talking about great post baby outfits and had on these leggings.  I went to Nordstroms and found a pair, and i dearly love them in every way.  Especially since my stomach has ALWAYS looked like a post baby stomach. 
They're cute, and they're cotton, so they're not itchy and don't feel like you have rubber bands on your legs... plus they have a wide soft waist band so they don't show your lumps.  And none of that crotch drop thing that is torture... They're comfortable enough to wear to bed, get up the next morning, put on a top and go... and believe me, i have... is that too gross?'

I love them - and not too bad a price at $38.00 a pair
Do yourself a favor and check them out...

this is a photo with me looking down at my boot... 

Anyway, even if you 're not interested in the leggings, you should check out Cara's blog, she is adorable and down to earth, and her blog is fun as anything... Plus she has great makeup tips...

last subject, i promise...

So I was at a cute little shop in town 
and the lady there asked me if i sold Milk Paint... and i was like uhhhhhhh no, why do you think i sell Milk Paint?  and she told me she thought since i knew Miss Mustard Seed, and had painted her cow "Eulalie" and stuff that maybe i did because she had clients who came to her shop looking for milk paint and she didn't sell it.

and she said, why don't' you do what i did, and get a storage shed kinda like this

or this... and adapt it a little to make it more cute, and open a little studio and sell your paintings and sell Milk Paint?

and I was immediately like, no that's crazy, i have to work full time to help pay our bills etc...
absolutely not, impossible... no way...

but it put an idea in my head... like hmmmm is something like that even remotely possible?

because i could paint more and maybe sell more prints and paintings if i had time to actually paint other than on the weekends - and then have time to market myself more with all the crazy social media that's out there... which is overwhelming even if one is not working...

and then I started thinking how fun it would be to dress up a little  shed with white paint, and chandeliers and well you know, i ended up with this in my brain

Sandra Fosters victorian cottage

which i think all of us have died for since we first saw it online...

but the fact is, if i'm lucky we'd probably end up with something more like this...
maybe even not this good...

but painted pink or white, with window boxes and a crystal chandelier .. even a plain box would be cute 

...and it would use all of our teeny little savings to set something like that up... the fantasy, i would have tea parties, 
(even though i don't even drink tea, hmmmm...maybe wine parties instead...) 

and little gatherings to sell my art 
(even though i've never given a party ever not ever, and i'm a total introvert)

and i would have time to paint and sell paintings and prints, 
and do yoga, and get rested and mentally stable again, maybe (ha!)
and so on....

In reality, I know i'm lucky to have a job, and health insurance, and what if i spent our meager savings on a little shed/cottage,
and then no one would buy anything from me ever again, and i'd end up penniless and wont even be able to buy my prescriptions, or even have enough money to shop at the thrift store etc... and more of the worst thing ever etc etc.... 

But then this little thing inside keeps whispering in my ear to take a chance, do something different, be brave, have faith in the bounty and magic in the universe
you know, like Marian, Miss Mustard Seed did, when she took leaps of faith... and look at where she is now or the Nester, how great is she!?

I mean I'm scared to be stuck at work until I die dealing with BS insurance companies until my butt fuses to my office desk chair, 
 but i'm also scared to take the risk to do something different and it not work out... and if it doesn't  who is going to hire a crazy neurotic freaky 60 year old lady !!? 

and then and then I'd end up stuck at home alone all day, (at least until our home got forclosed on)  - with our cat, who by the way is insane, and become a crazy wrinkled, divorced, broke old alcoholic cat lady... who dies on her sofa and no one finds her body for 3 days

I don't know guys, what do you think about the whole idea of working less, like a lot less, maybe not at all, and painting more, and risking complete financial ruin?

  ...uhhhhh ... the end...?

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

and the Award for the Worst Blogger in the World goes to ...


I am definitely the worst blogger ever!  

It's just that I feel like my house is a mess, and I have too many unfinished ideas and projects and paintings, and i want to rip the living room carpet up and it just seems too hard to even start, and everything in my brain feels like chaos...  

You know how it is when you feel like you have to clean up the kitchen before you can cook anything.  
I think i feel like i have to get my house and my mind in order before I can talk about anything.  But it just keeps not happening.  It's one extended period of overload that is not giving way to calm and order... 

So just to let you know I'm still here, and reading you guys whenever i can sneak a peak at while I'm at work, and that basically  I'm doing this blog post without anything whatsoever substantial to say other than "hey"! 

...but I will show you a pretty sheepskin I found at an unlikely shop the other day, 
that and this perfect shade of pink tablecloth all tossed together on the sofa...

I think just looking at pretty pink stuff makes everything better....


So Mr. Fractured and I decided we wanted our own child together... 
and after some discussion -  we decided to adopt a kitten.

I know there are so many adult cats that need homes, but we really wanted to raise a baby together.  
I guess that seems a little stupid, but at our age and after all we been through raising our kid's cats and dogs after the kids went on their merry ways
we wanted a baby just for us...

We went to the Durham pound and after massive paperwork and promises to go to the vet and a deposit and a waiting period we were allow to adopt our new kitten  

She looks so calm and sweet there doesn't she...

Well... about 80% of the time she is purring and affectionate and playful and funny
but between around 5pm and 8pm
she is a sociopath - 
she's like the tasmanian devil - crazy cat 
all claws and somersaults sideways bouncing attack kitty... 

my dogs are like what the hell, what were you guys thinking???!

But oh boy how we love her...
Mr. Fractured is such a good and doting daddy
it is totally sweet and makes me fall in love with him all over again

Oh yeah, 
dried hydrangeas and kittens...
need i say more other than i hope you don't really love your dried hydrangeas if you get a kitten

So there's that...


I still have these Cafe au Lait dahlias blooming and I LOVE them
the thing is they bloom very late summer and now they are covered in the promise of so many blooms to come and it's about 3 weeks till the first frost and they cannot tolerate any frost
So i'm telling the little flower buds to hurry up and open !!!


I found this sweet little Madonna bust at a yard sale for $3.00 and 
she just really spoke to me

but she was kind of washed out 
so i painted her base pink and gave her a little flush on her cheeks...

I really hope i haven't defiled a priceless religious object by painting it with annie sloan and oil paint...



My friend had this adorable little white table at her shop and tried it out beside my sofa, and it totally brightens that whole little space up - i have two dark wood Target tables beside the sofa now... so that was fun ...

 I painted this feather painting to sell at my friend's shop

but then i liked it and hung it in my house...

I'll probably sell it soon

Oh yeah, and i saw this little nest painting I did for Marian 
( Miss Mustard Seed) a couple of years ago on her blog recently.

It made me so proud to see how pretty it looks in her gorgeous house... 
But she knows how to make everything look good...

Gosh... there really is so much in the world to look at and talk about...

but I guess that's enough random subjects to throw at you guys for now...

...much love...

...the end...

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

A New Settee

Hi Guys!

Can you even believe summer is coming to a close!??!

The older I get the faster everything goes.  I mean really fast. Like a year seems more like 4 months fast.
 Before you know it I will be dead.  So that being said, I think it's ok to eat chocolate any time i want... right?

Anyway, Mr. Fractured and I finally took a little vacation and went to the beach.  Other than the drive down which involved apocalyptic thunderstorms that looked like F5 tornadoes were going to drop out of them,  and having to pull off the road 3 times, which made Mr. Fractured go into his "I'm being patient" mode... which really means, she's completely out of her mind... 
it turned out to be so relaxing and just beachy wonderfulness as the beach always is.  

One of the best parts of Oak Island, NC is that it is near Southport which is this little port town with boats and shops and benches and cute old houses and cottages.  

 check out what i found on the front porch of one of the little shops

This pink tattered and torn settee!

Here it is on the front porch of the little shop - that box covers up a hole in it, but i didn't care
It was love at first site...

Just look at those adorable rolled arms, and the pretty little legs

I really want it at my dining room table... but it's too short.  Soooooooo, here we go with the change one thing and completely redo everything else deal.  

I am going to have to make it taller or the table shorter or both... I know i can take at least an inch maybe two off the table base, but how to raise the settee... hmmmmm - do ya'll have any ideas on how to do that?

Plus my dining table is really too big for the room, and now the chandy doesn't hang over the center anymore 
aaannnd ... if i lower the table I may need to cut off the little apron around the round part of the table so your legs don't bang into it... and i need to move the little desk out of the way

all of that and more to infinity...

Moving stuff around did inspire me to move my "Miss Daisy" print to over my mantel and i really do like her there better than the rose that was up there
i just propped her up in front of the other painting

oh yeah, I didn't want to forget to show you guys this little cottage in Southport
How cute is that!
I could so totally live in that little pink house right near the seaport...


hmmmm...What else has been going on...

Well, i've been growing my first dahlias and it's been an interesting experience.

I had no idea the stems could get as thick around as a quarter at the bottom... so some of them have fallen right over from the weight.  
And I was thinking I'd only get a few blooms, but they are just now coming to fruition and i'm getting lots of the amazing big flowers, and some of the stems and blooms are already up past my waist!...
so i'm pretty sure I love them!

In the spring the garden was so tidy, and i planted lots of tomatoes and some hot peppers and squash ...

By July the tomatoes had gone crazy...
like, what the heck crazy!

they are growing up all over the place, as tall as me, covering up the peppers and sage and lavender
falling over the fence

everything is now totally overgrown and messy

kinda like a cottage garden, but not in a good way !

It's like a jungle!

plus there is the occasional poison ivy in the mix

I did pick this bouquet of roses just last week
i couldn't even believe something that wonderful came out of my very own garden

So anyway, i was out weeding and cutting back stuff, and had been all up near the poison ivy with my bare hands, 
and you know how it is in the garden, you go to do one little thing, and don't put on your gloves, and end up sticking your hand in places where you just really really hope a snake doesn't bite you

and i had a skirt on because i always wear dresses or skirts because i can't really stand the way pants feel all up on my legs
 i know, weird huh...
ok and i know this is TMI but 99.9% of my life i wear undies, but for some reason didn't have any on in that moment
probably just threw on a skirt to go water the window box or something

anyway a branch of a flower or something went up under my skirt and BAM something bit me right on my ass!  and it wasn't a small little bite either!  

i was like GAAAHHHH!  

I didn't want to touch anything because i had poison ivy on my hands, but i didn't even want whatever thing that was to bite me again!!!

And of course i didn't have my undies on!  Really???!! 

I froze for about a millisecond  and  then just dropped my skirt down around my ankles with my bare bottom and everything else showing... 

I mean i didn't know what the heck horrible thing was up under there 

 i  didn't really have good choices here

It could've been a hornet, or even worse, a spider 
or maybe even a mutant hornet black widow spider poisonous snake for all i knew.... 

anyway, i live on a corner of a neighborhood, where cars do go by and people walk by all the time, and i had to make it into the house with the skirt around my knees without being seen... 

It was a great look

I walked in and Mr. Fractured just stood there... like uhhhhhh
and he is very polite
so he wouldn't laugh at a lady in distress
but i could tell he was holding his lips together to keep from laughing
and as i was escaping from my skirt i just said 
"don't look at me"!!!
because seriously, my bottom half is not my best half especially in broad daylight...

and that is most of the latest from cindysfracturedfairytale and fractured cottage garden 

...the end...